I am Back!

Okay... I am Internet addicted. I tried VERY hard to keep updated via cell phone (Via small screen with constant readings of "Page to Large to Display"). This will be a short blog update on me and my damn drama. THEN it will be back to the usual normal kinda CRAZY drama life minus the bad drama. I know... HUH? Anyhow...

I have my laptop back. YAY! I have dropped put of school for this semester. I am working more hours at work starting next week. I added MORE drama. But, I'm dealing.

The boyfriend thing... Well, I'm not too shameless to admit that I was and am still yet less highly stressed out. Raising Ashlee, who has special needs. Needs another surgery coming up and NO answers has taken it's toll. Two, dealing with her Dad which is a pain in the ass. And school, which I am horrible let's rephrase that HORRIBLE at Math and Chemistry specifically Advanced Organic Biochemistry. I had to STOP some things.

I don't have a problem with working. I need it. I need the break, and I enjoy making my own money. I can adequately support myself. I do have an issue with being alone, however, I have an issue with opening up and letting anyone help. (hence... ISSUES with my non-committal jealous of me, verbally abusive parents that I have). And yes, Jealous. After hearing of how I have more than they did at my age, how I was the girl that my Mother despised in high school etc etc). I realize I have issues which probably have a lot to do with them, and my EX. But that's OK.

On top of all of that, I had my health insurance cancelled. Hence paying Out of pocket lately which was killing me. SO... I took it out on a lot of people.

The boyfriend and I, are speaking, and working things out. Crying on my door step, selling his car to give me money, refusing to leave me and this as he knows it's right, and refusing to let me deal with all of this on my own.

I've had my bills paid, have had a week off work, and a break from school. I haven't done laundry or cooked or cleaned ANYTHING. He has done it all. From helping me try to find a counselor to work out my "I wont let anyone help me saga" etc etc. Nope, it isn't all FIXED, but working on it, and I have felt much better. In the scheme of things, my ex-husband (Ashlee's Dad) decided that THIS was the opportunity to "get back together" and is now damn drama King once I said Umm no. However, I haven't responded to his calls, his Voice mail, his rudeness, or his stupid comments. (Which is so not me, normally, I don;t do well with confrontation and WILL prove my argument or point.) Which i realized is what he thrives on. But, I'm SO DONE with that. On top of that, the day My boyfriend moved out I got a SEVERE gas leak in the house, and called the landlord to tell him, the gas company was on the way. He of course asked about the boyfriend, (He's the maintenance man here). And I told him he moved. Well, upon returning to here, the landlord in no certain terms, asked me out, wanted to discuss my "rent" and noted that his "situation" (ig: MARRIED) was an issue to not do this this weekend, as his wifey was out of town. Yeah, OKAY. I'm 31, and he's like 60. Two, WHAT IN THE HELL GAVE THIS MAN ANY CLUE OR SUGGESTION THAT I WAS THAT KIND OF PERSON, OR NEEDED "HELP" PAYING MY BILLS?" Well, the boyfriend dealt with that and pretty much since I didn't wish to be upended on my ass in the streets or deal with court drama, he called him back, and is DEALING with all apartment related issues to him. I'm not sure how to deal with the creepy ass hole, or what to say at this point, but he's real damn scared I told the boyfriend, and hasn't called me since. Any ideas?

So, I;'m back, more relaxed and dealing as usual. I missed you all, and have ALOT of catching up to do!